So I have been off the radar for 5 months now and I’m finally starting to feel better thank god. I have only vomited 5x in the past 9days and believe me that’s a record..
This time it wasn’t the silly IBS flaring up although at times it was quite similar.
Early November I found out I was Pregnant! I didn’t think I could ever have kids so it was a massive shock to me. Then a week or so after that shit hit the fan. I just got sicker and sicker day after day week after week.
The visits to ED just got more and more regular and I was going in at least 3x a week just to get fluids – I was dehydrated badly. I couldn’t walk I couldn’t move I couldn’t stand for longer than 10 minutes or I would collapse. Everytime I ate or drunk I would vomit.. even from a little sip of water.
I was diagnosed in middle of December with Hyperemesis Gravidarum – A complication in pregnancy that is characterized by persistent uncontrollable nausea and vomitting.
But I must say the doctors and staff were pretty good apart from only one awful triage nurse – had to wait in ED waiting room vomitting curled up shaking for 3 hours even other people were going upto the desk saying I really think that young lady needs to be seen.
Each time I would go in I would need the fluids and antimedics through IV. I always ended up getting dehydrated because I would vomit so much, I honestly couldn’t keep anything down! Not even a sip of water.
During the admitions they saw how bad I really was. Shaking all the time and vomitting constantly. I would always need antinausea medication through the IV LINE then after a few different lots I would come right for a few hours at least anyway. But the vomitting always came back.. I was nausous all of the time.
I had been put on Ondansteron 8mg, Cyclzine 25mg and also Maxalon 10mg but nothing was working. I would be popping so many pills in a day to try too stop they vomitting but they just wouldn’t work. Half the time I vomitting most of the pills up. The only time it would work was if it was fed to me through an IV line that it could go directly into my bloodstream.
After a while they even decided to try me on Steriods – still these did not work. More hospital visits… I also ended up having a nutritional deficiency because I was vomitting so much. I needed B1 Thiamine otherwise it was going to start affecting my brain.
I wasn’t putting on any weight was losing it and even now looking at me I do not even look pregnant! But my baby is in there still growing everyday (don’t ask me how)
Vomitting all day every day was awful. But it wasn’t just the vomitting I would have to be in bed all the time laying down I had no energy to watch TV go on my phone or do any work during that time, I couldn’t even pick up a book. I couldn’t do a massage I couldn’t even do my own nails let alone do my hair or makeup.
It was the most awful time I got so depressed on multiple occasions. It has been the hardest time of my life even with all the IBS. I also suffer majorly from anxiety and I have never suffered with it this bad before. I was having panic attacks all of the time…. I didn’t want to do it anymore I wanted to give up on more than one occasion. I would be freaking out so much I then started hyperventilating.. I couldn’t feel my hands or my legs my eyes were at the back of my head my whole body was literally having shaking fits and had to either do the brown paper bag thing or have an oxygen mask on.
The TACT team from Kensington visited me in Hospital twice during the past few months and I am now under Kensington Care – best thing that has happened. They have helped me understand my triggers and helped with my breathing and my whole overall mood.
It has been so hard for people to understand unless they physically see me at my worst.
BUT….. this is all going to be worth it at the end of it I get a wee baby 😆😀😁
That’s what I tell myself anyways..
I will be forever greatful to my number one fan.. my mother. Honestly this lady has put up with so much – even my own partner couldn’t stick around and handle it. (Now ex) Without my mum I wouldn’t be here today. I would have given up. She has given me so much hope and support and I am now living back with her and plan on being here for the first few months with my newborn baby girl.
Not only my mum was amazing but also my nana, sister and a select few friends – I am so lucky to have so much amazing support around me, and I will be forever greatful!
I am now 20 weeks pregnant and I’m feeling so much better. I can actually have a shower by myself and go to the supermarket without fainting now. I even did my hair and makeup all pretty yesterday 😘😇🤗
Let’s just hope it lasts!
Hyperemesis Gravidarum is an awful awful condition and it is so super hard for anyone to understand. I get so sick of people saying have you tried this and that? Yes I have tried it all – HG is different than just morning sickness… it is so so much worse and do not let anyone else tell you differently. Unless they physically live through it they just don’t understand!
I would love to hear your stories!